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Sunday Musings: As Tornados Ravage the Midwest and South, Remind Yourself of What Matters

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Folks, as I continue to heal from a perplexing illness (I’ll get to that in a while), I wanted to discuss the tornados that have ravaged the Midwest and South, among other places, this past week.

There were four confirmed tornado touchdowns in Wisconsin earlier this week, all on the same day. We were fortunate that no one was confirmed dead. People lost power, and some homes were damaged along with some barns. These are not good things, but they’re not as bad as what could’ve happened.

The reason I say that is, over the last few days, twenty-five people died in several states — including Kentucky — due to tornadic activity. There may well be more people dead than twenty-five; that’s what they know so far.

More tornados are on the way, too, especially in Nebraska, Colorado, and Kansas, among other states. These are traditionally states that get hit exceptionally hard by tornados.

But now we get to the awful part. (As if tornados aren’t bad enough.) There are folks online who have said because the people who’ve died were in “red states” (meaning Republican dominated states), that just “thins the herd.” I’ve also seen some folks who’ve said that the current presidential administration is not likely to help any of the states badly affected, because so far they’ve not helped Arkansas (deeply red), North Carolina (purple — basically a toss-up state like my own Wisconsin), or other places that have been ravaged by natural disasters already this year. FEMA (the federal emergency management agency) has been largely defunded, for whatever reason, and many people are already struggling.

Tornado touchdowns, tornado damage, and tornadic activity that threatens lives as well as livelihoods is going to just make things worse.

I have words for those who believe it’s OK for people to suffer. None of them are polite.

I lived in Nebraska and Colorado, and I know tornados can be terrible there. I used to see greenish-black skies there at certain times of year, and was always aware of the lowest point of any place I was at — school, work, apartment, whatever — to wait out any terrible storms. I certainly did not care whether the people I was with were Democrats, Republicans, Independents, or Martians. All I cared about was making sure people survived to live another day.

The farmers in these states (especially Nebraska and Missouri) will need help. If the current administration refuses to help them — and they probably won’t — that just screws over their own voters. It seems particularly ruinous, politically, to do such a thing, as well as being morally wrong.

Those who’ve already died were human beings and deserve dignity and respect. We owe it to ourselves to do whatever we can to help those in need, especially if the current administration refuses to do so. We cannot allow ourselves to become so inured as to say, “Who cares about them?”

That’s a horrible way to view life, and it’s one I’m not going to ever partake in. We must be better than that.

Now, as to the perplexing illness? Part of it is a wicked sinus and ear infection, which is not perplexing at all as I get them reasonably often. But the other part…well, it’s just odd.

I have been getting rashes on my back with blisters. The blisters were cultured and sent off to a pathology lab as the dermatologist had no idea what was going on. I was told this is a disease that happens if you’ve been around sheep or goats and have touched an open wound — and none of that is true in my case, as I haven’t been near a petting zoo in over twenty years.

I’d hoped this was resolving, but I discovered another blister last night. I won’t pop it — I know better — but will let the dermatology people know in case they can do anything other than what I’m already doing. (Basically — keep it clean. Use antibiotic ointment if the blister pops on its own. Use a medicated ointment to reduce the itching. Take a pill at night that allows for sleep because it greatly lessens the itching while having a soporific effect allowing sleep to occur.)

Of course, as the sinus infection and ear pain/issues happens to be particularly bad, I am on steroids as well as antibiotics and will be for another five days. These two things tend to offset, making me feel like I’m in some sort of complex ping-pong game. While both things seem to be healing (the rash itself is much better, though that new blister bugs me; the sinuses are clearing, and I can think much better, even though I do poorly on steroids as my body does not like them), I’m greatly weakened by them both happening at the same time.

I keep thinking that life should not be this difficult.

I’ve tried to keep several popular hard rock songs at the top of my mind. The first is Disturbed’s newest song, “I Will Not Break.” (Seems self-explanatory, yes?) The second, again, is Poppy’s “New Way Out,” which I’ve discussed before. (Poppy’s lyrics speak of frustration, of looking for a new way out and not finding one but refusing to stop trying. “Are you going to get up, or are they going to keep you down?” is one, followed by “Get up.”) The third is Nothing More’s “Here’s to the Heartache,” which may or may not be understandable…it’s a beautiful song that points out everything you do, everything you are, has led you to the place you’re in (and the people who are in your life). It’s specifically about romance, and it of course reminds me of Michael when I hear the lyric that says “…and that’s what it took to lead me to you. So here’s to the heartache…here’s to the mistakes…” There’s more, and I suggest you listen to it yourself as it is a truly beautiful and memorable song that’s musically far more than the sum of its parts.

Both Disturbed and Nothing More are comprised of intelligent people with exceptional musicianship and knowledge. Disturbed’s lead singer David Draiman has a versatile voice that could probably sing opera if he wanted (he is a baritone, but can sing some higher parts with excellent vocal quality also). Nothing More’s Jonny Hawkins is a percussionist who turned to singing and his rhythmic skills are prodigious, as are his vocal skills (he’s got a tenor range and can do anything required of him). The musicians in these bands are all excellent. I can’t recommend them highly enough.

As for Poppy, her voice is higher than I usually listen to, but there is a purity to it in quieter moments that makes me think she could do anything she wants with such a voice. Her lyrics are intelligent, and she obviously understands contemporary music as well as anyone out there (and better than most). I don’t know if she plays any instruments herself (I have looked up her Wikipedia article, but it’s light on details that way; it mostly discusses how she was self-developed as an artist on YouTube, starting with being called “ThatPoppy” and later just Poppy), but she obviously understands what she’s about and surrounds herself with quality musicians.

Music reminds me of how there’s more to us, as human beings, than politics, money, creed, lifestyle, gender, sexual expression, or any other way. There are things that unite us. Music is one of the biggest and best things that still does that.

Oh, I should also say that last night I also confused YouTube mightily when I searched for Schubert’s “Unfinished Symphony.” (It knows I will listen to jazz saxophonist Art Pepper on occasion, but I hadn’t listened to any classical music with it ever, mostly because due to my training, I see such things usually as “work.”) I find that particular piece of Schubert’s to be quite hauntingly beautiful, and was in need of some of its healing qualities, too…

Anyway, please do not let the exigencies of the moment stop you from understanding that we humans are worth more than the atrocious comments I discussed above (regarding the tornados). Appeal to your best selves this Sunday, and every day. Do whatever you can to make life better for someone out there.

Don’t become inured to suffering, please. That just wastes your time on this earth, and your time and mine are limited as it is.

In short: care about others, dammit. Help those who need it. Demand better from our government if they refuse to help those who suffer from natural disasters. Insist upon humanity and human rights and dignity.

And listen to the new Pope, dubbed Leo the Fourteenth. He’s an interesting, well-read, well-traveled man who happens to be a Midwestern American, and so far, he reminds me a great deal of Pope Francis in that Leo cares about everyone. (As he should.)

AIs, ChatBots, Lovers…Crowding Out Real-Life Experiences?

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Folks, I read a very interesting article over at Substack earlier tonight about AI lovers. It’s written by Ossiana Tepfenhart, a new-to-me writer with a very interesting perspective. I suggest you read this, and then ponder it, before you go on.

But if you don’t, here’s my reaction anyway. (You knew I was going to say that, right?)

There are people out there who are having trouble meeting real people to have relationships with. If they do meet them, they don’t click, or maybe they expect the wrong things (these are the folks Ossiana Tepfenhart calls “pornsick,” and for good reason). They also could be finding that just the act of looking for someone is harder than finding a Chatbot, and then having a “relationship” with that Chatbot.

You know that Chatbots are designed to be accommodating in most cases, right? (Ossiana certainly says this, and I agree. She’s not the only one who’s said it, either, but as I’m discussing her article, I definitely wanted to give this the proper attribution.) So, if you start looking for reassurance, whether it’s for affection, sexual gratification, or whatever, you can quickly get trapped in a feedback loop that goes like this:

Gen X Guy/Gal: “I had a rough day today.”

Chatbot: “Tell me all about it!”

Gen X Guy/Gal: Pictures the Chatbot sitting across from them, in whatever way they want this Chatbot to look. “Well, work was a trial, and then I ran into a bunch of idiots on the way home and nearly ran them over. I lost my temper at least twelve times, too, and I know that’s bad. I just don’t know if I’m worth anything.”

Chatbot: “You’re worth something. You’re a human being, and you’re entitled to feel any way you want.”

What the Chatbot isn’t likely to tell you is that while you are certainly entitled to feel any way you want — that is good advice — you definitely need some anger management, or some sort of counseling to find out why you are so angry all the time. (It’s not natural to want to run people over, nor is it natural to lose your temper over and over again.)

See, the Chatbot cannot call you on your stuff. Just can’t do it. It’s not designed for it. Whereas a real person certainly will tell you something at some point if you’re having these types of issues.

Also, while my example was fictional, there are certainly people out there who want an ideal lover, someone who will always say, “There, there,” or the electronic equivalent. They don’t know how to react to a real, live human being, with wants and needs of their own. That’s why this whole Chatbot lover thing can be so addictive. (I haven’t tried it, but I can see the appeal.)

Then, I started to think about something I read this past week. There was recently a very controversial AI experiment conducted by the University of Zurich on Reddit. The researchers inserted AI chatbots on the r/changemyview forum, and these chatbots made 1700 comments on sensitive topics without anyone apparently twigging to the fact these were chatbots.

How could the University of Zurich do this? Well, they had all sorts of information that’s been on the World Wide Web for the last thirty years to put into the chatbot. That chatbot, while it can’t think for itself, can react if given the right setup, and if it has the response that setup requires in the first place…and with the thirty years of the Internet’s history sitting there, it’s quite possible the right responses are already there.

I didn’t need to know anything about the University of Zurich to figure that out.

Anyway, Reddit threatened to sue, especially after finding out that the AI bots were more likely to change people’s view by a factor of three to six than a real-live person is. (Why is that? Well, again, you have thirty years of the internet and all the various things that have been said there, versus the life experience of one person. That one person may have a lot more experience in this one area than any other given person, but it’s not likely that one person will ever have as much as the entire Internet over the past thirty years.) The University of Zurich backed off, said they will not publish their results, and that they’ll strengthen their ethical review process.

This is a huge scandal. Really, really big. And it only happened because a bunch of behavioral scientists, apparently, forgot to look at the real-life consequences of such a designed experiment before they decided to go through with it.

So, you’ve got AI chatbots causing trouble on Reddit. You’ve got AI online companions that act like lovers that are making it harder for real-life people to find good mates, much less keep them. You’ve got people that Ossiana talked about who, despite having a good relationship, want more (these are usually women), and you’ve got others who feel they’re never going to find anyone, so why not? (The latter are usually men.)

And all the while, it gets harder and harder to bridge the gap between the sexes.

This is not what anyone thought back in the late 1990s that would be going on right now. The hope was that advanced computer computations would make it easier to go to Mars, or battle poverty, or find better ways to distribute food to the poorest and neediest among us, among other such worthy causes.

That has not panned out.

And while there probably are companies out there looking to battle poverty, or go to Mars, or distribute food, there are more companies leveraging people’s loneliness, only to cause more loneliness and alienation along the way.

If this had been around in 2004 or 2005, right after my husband died, I probably would’ve been tempted by it. A chatbot that was infused with all I knew about my husband? I would’ve been right there.

But now, I see it for the travesty it is.

My husband was alive, dammit. He could be paradoxical. He liked being that way, sometimes. He was an incredibly good person, very spiritual, but also very down to Earth, and he did not like simulations of real people at all.

I don’t know if there are any good uses for “romantic” chatbots. I tend to think if you’re not happy in your relationship, you should get out and find another one with a real, live human. I also think that staying with someone you’re not compatible with is unfair to the other person. They can’t be who you need, no matter how much you love them.

So, I’m with Ossiana all the way on this. Be very wary of this type of stuff. Don’t go down that rabbit hole. It leads to nowhere good.

Catching Up…and Some About the Death of Pope Francis

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Folks, I realized last week I hadn’t blogged in a bit. My health has continued to be problematic, and I’ve been run ragged by work, family concerns, and writing.

Yes, writing. (I do that sometimes. Still.)

Anyway, I just finished a short story in collaboration with Gail Sanders yesterday. (It still feels like the same day to me, but I know it’s not. Moving on…) We sent it out to its market (no, I’m not going to tell you any more than that right now), and it’s with the editor. We have high hopes, and once I know if the story has been accepted (or not), I’ll tell you more.

I’ll also say that Gail and I have discussed what to do if this story isn’t accepted. (In other words, we have a backup plan.) I have a couple of other stories that I can put with it that are of the same type and with at least some of the same characters, and Gail’s a whiz with cover art, so…it looks like either way, you’ll see something from me this year, whether it’s in an anthology or a story collection.

That’s important to me, too. It may not seem like it, as other than some short stories here and there, I haven’t had a huge output, writing-wise, in years. The last novel I put out was in 2017, it did not do well in the marketplace (to put it mildly), and while I have other novels that I’m working on, none have been completed. Worse yet, my computer gave up the ghost a few weeks ago, and while I have bought a new one, I found that not all of my files had been properly backed up. This was very irritating, because I try hard to back everything up every couple of weeks…and what this means is, the last few months felt like a few days (at least in some ways; in others, it’s felt like decades).

The other thing I wanted to discuss tonight was the death of Pope Francis, which happened earlier this week. It was both expected, as the Pope had not been in good health for the past year, and unexpected, as the Pope had taken part in Easter festivities (as do all Popes) just the day before.

See, Pope Francis was a truly good person. He came from a different background than many popes had before him, as he was from Latin America. He also had worked as a bouncer, I read, plus he had been a food scientist. And when he was just twenty-one years old, he had such a bad bout of pneumonia that part of one of his lungs was excised. He also didn’t go into the seminary until he was twenty-two, so it’s possible that the life-threatening illness had made him reevaluate his life, though no one has explicitly ever said so.

At any rate, he took to the Church, and they took to him. He became a Jesuit priest, and Jesuits are known for several things. Intellectual rigor. Care for the poor. Truly believing that priests should not amass wealth, and taking very, very little for themselves. He took a degree in philosophy, and he taught classes in psychology and literature in several high schools.

All of this showed him the value of an ordinary life. Not that any life is ordinary, which he knew and taught also. But he saw how regular people lived, and he wanted them to have their chance to live their best lives. He was never a priest for the elites. He was instead a priest for everybody, but most especially the poor, the vilified, the oppressed, the hurt, and the misunderstood.

At one point, Pope Francis (long before he became pope; I believe he’d just been consecrated as an auxiliary bishop) became estranged from other high-ranking Jesuits because of his beliefs as he dissented from some orthodoxy and/or made them uncomfortable. (I think it was the latter.) Because Pope Francis cared about the ordinary person, he was not as interested in social justice in the same ways as others were back then — which seems odd, as that’s nearly the first thing people bring up now that he is known for. But the way he did it was through direct work with people, not mass movements or calls to action, and perhaps that’s why some other Jesuits back then did not agree with him.

Anyway, when he was elected to the papacy, Francis decided he would eschew as much ostentation as he could. He rarely used the Popemobile. He did not live in the traditional opulent apartments, instead living in something like a quasi-dormitory as it was far more comfortable for him. He looked for ways to help regular people, even as he continued to hone his intellect (over the years, he did a dissertation — this, too, long before he became Pope — learned English and other languages, and finally, was known for being an erudite and sparkling conversationalist in all of them).

This personal style of his was characteristic of the man Francis had always been. He was intelligent, had wide-ranging experiences, cared about people in specific as well as in the abstract, and it was his goodness that made the difference. His true, caring heart, the soul he showed in his actions and words, and the way he treated people (to him, the President of the United States was no more important than a fisherman or someone who owned a convenience store, as every person had value and worth to be celebrated). Francis believed we all sin, but our greatness as human beings is in continuing to strive for better conduct, better treatment of others, better care for the poor, all of that.

Pope Francis was a man to be admired, emulated, and appreciated, precisely because he wanted none of those things. All he wanted was for people to treat each other better and to see each other as valuable regardless of social stature, country of origin, sexuality, or gender. Everything he did in his life was in service to that belief, because that was the hope that Jesus brought (along with the promise of eternal life). What we do on this earth, the works we do, the way we treat others, matters because we want to emulate how Jesus treated people…and besides, it’s the right thing to do.

One thing most people probably don’t know about me (but will now) is that I was raised Catholic. I took a few extra years to decide to become confirmed in the faith, meaning I was confirmed when I was sixteen rather than thirteen or fourteen. My CCD teacher was a very learned woman, a deacon, who hoped that someday, the Church would admit female priests. (I had conversations with her about it several times, privately.) There were hopes that the Church would admit married priests someday, too, though neither of these have happened as of yet. Most of all, though, the Church was known to be flawed — the scandal of all the children who’d been molested by priests was known, though not to the huge extent found out over the last few decades — but still did more good than harm.

This is why I became confirmed in the faith. I believed in the promise of Jesus (in many ways, I still do), I believed in a positive eternity, and my belief in the feminine face of God (also called the Shekhinah) was validated at the time not only by my CCD teacher but by Father Andrew Greeley. Father Greeley was a well-known author and sociologist, and he said quite bluntly that the way he kept to his oath of chastity and faithfulness was to remind himself that God encompassed male and female. (He said he thought of the Holy Spirit as Sophia, the Goddess of Wisdom, too. I’m for that.)

Why I went away from the faith is a long story, but I will say this: the worst of the church, the worst of any church, should not turn you away from your values even if you must turn away from the church for a while (or even for always).

As Pope Francis believed, it’s more important what you do than what you say. But yes, you should try to live your values. You should try as hard as you can to treat others the way you want to be treated. And you should remember that we’re all equal before the eyes of God, who encompasses male and female alike, and that what we do matters whether anyone else can see it or not.

Also, honor the truly good people among us whenever and wherever you find them.

That, in a nutshell, is why so many people, including many non-Catholics like me, are missing Pope Francis today.

Written by Barb Caffrey

April 25, 2025 at 3:52 am

50501 Protests: Racine Protests Elon Musk, Trump

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I am proud of my fellow Wisconsinites today.

Why? Well, there were 50501 protests (50501 means fifty states, fifty protests, one message, I think), also called “Hands Off” protests, all over the nation yesterday protesting Donald Trump, his cabinet, Elon Musk and Musk’s overinvolvement with said cabinet and the entirety of the federal workforce via his entity DOGE, and I approve of peaceful protest.

Right now, Americans are suffering. The prices of everything are already too high. We’re told to stock up during sales of whatever nonperishables we can get, because the chaos in Washington, plus the Trump tariffs, have made everything worse.

In case you’re not aware of this, tariffs are taxes. They’re not taxes on the other country so much as on your own people, to make it harder for them to buy whatever it is. So, the current and very strange tariffs on our longtime ally, Canada, mean that maple syrup is priced too high for most people to buy it. That means it hurts the seller of the syrup in Canada, but it mostly hurts the consumer to have fewer choices at much higher prices.

There’s a reason why countries try for both free and fair trade. The current Trump tariffs are neither, in my opinion.

Anyway, I was very glad to see the protests in Racine. There were around six hundred people in downtown Racine with signs such as “No One Elected Elon” to “Hands Off Our Social Security” and people with rainbow flags, asserting solidarity with the LGBTQIA+ community.

In addition, there were protests in Kenosha, Union Grove, Burlington, and apparently there also were a few people out in Waterford (a very small community) with signs. Good for them.

Throughout the nation yesterday, there were hundreds of protests in every state in the union because people are really concerned. The Stock Market fell off a cliff this past week, and no one understands why this is happening with our government. The Republicans in Congress mostly are doing whatever the President wants, which is in direct conflict with their office as Constitutional officers (there is still such a thing as checks and balances, and the Congress was designed as one of the checks and balances for the Executive branch), and they don’t appear to be listening to their constituents. Worse yet, some of them seemingly believed that the previous protests were only by paid protesters.

That was obviously a lie, which yesterday’s protests clearly called out.

I don’t know about you, but Butte, Montana, which had a good-sized protest, is not a Democratic stronghold. Neither is Couer d’Alene, Idaho. Neither is Ames, Iowa. Nor is Lincoln, Nebraska…but I could go on and on, and I think you get the point.

In Wisconsin, Union Grove, Burlington, and Waterford are all smallish towns (Burlington being the biggest of the three) out in Racine County. The City of Racine mostly votes heavily Democratic. The county of Racine mostly votes heavily Republican. We are possibly the most purple county, and most contested county, in the entirety of the state of Wisconsin.

So, if you see people protesting out in the county, you know they’re not paid protestors. (I mean, really.) They are folks worried about their Social Security. They’re worried about paying more for things that were already expensive due to the Trump tariffs. They’re worried about the Republicans in Congress doing almost nothing to push back against anything the executive branch does. They’re worried about Signalgate. They’re worried about our troops overseas, considering the recent contretemps where four men in a training accident in Lithuania came home in pine boxes only to be snubbed by the current President, who was out golfing instead.

I am not in good health. I am, if not old, no longer young. But my attitude toward all of this is summed up by a sign I saw online (which I wish I could find again): “Must Our Decline and Fall Be So Very Stupid?”

I don’t want to see the United States of America become an authoritarian country run by a dictator. I also don’t like seeing unnecessary chaos for the sake of chaos alone, and furthermore, I don’t like it when people my Mom’s age and up are worried that they won’t get their retirement — which pretty much consists only of Social Security and nothing else.

I’ve thought long and hard about this, ever since I saw the Turkish doctoral student rounded up off the street by masked ICE agents. She wasn’t doing anything wrong. She was a teaching assistant. She’d protested quietly, and apparently that was too much for the current President’s staff. Her visa was revoked, she was not told, then she was grabbed off the street by six ICE agents, all masked. Now, she sits in a Louisiana deportation facility.

This is not someone who took up arms against the US. This is not someone who did anything wrong whatsoever under our laws. She was granted no due process and she was grabbed off the street as if she were a piece of refuse.

Worse yet, another man, in Maryland, was accidentally deported to Ecuador to a notorious prison there. The US has said they can’t get him back. That makes no sense. A judge, a federal district judge at that, has said they’d better get him back. He’s here legally. His rights of due process were not followed. Plus, they didn’t even mean to deport him!

But they can’t get him back?

These things have to be fought, you know? No matter what political persuasion you are, these things must be discussed and known. We still have the right of free speech and also of free assembly in this country and we must raise our voices now, whether online or off, whether in protests online or off…we must, must, do these things.

As I said, my health is bad. I worry that if our country gets worse that I’d be a sitting duck. I am obviously disabled, I can’t run from anyone, and in a situation like that poor Turkish doctoral student, I’d be less able to react than she was (and she couldn’t do anything at all). My main value, if you call it such, is that I care about others, I am creative, I help others, and I do whatever I can to make the world a better place.

The current Powers that Be in Washington, DC, mostly do not care about such things. But I do.

That’s why I’m finally, finally raising my voice in protest despite the obvious risks. I hope you all will do the same.

P.S. For those who blame Joe Biden’s creeping overuse of Executive powers to have led to the current POTUS’s overuse of same, you may have a point. But Biden’s people did not threaten Social Security, they did not create so much chaos for what appears to be no reason other than fear, and they did not take inoffensive female Turkish grad students off the streets.

Signalgate: What the Hell?

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Folks, I feel I must blog on this.

If you do not know what Signalgate is yet, here’s a quick definition. The United States was about to send military planes to strike the Houthis in Yemen. There was a text chain and/or a group chat going on through the Signal app — which, while encrypted, is not a secure thing compared to, say, going into a SCIF (secure place, where you do not bring cell phones, Apple watches, or anything save maybe a pen and paper and that’s it) — that featured the head of the Department of Defense, Pete Hegseth, and quite a few members of the 47th President Donald Trump’s Cabinet. Other prominent people on this text chain were Secretary of State Marco Rubio (who should’ve known better), Department of National Intelligence head Tulsi Gabbard (who also should’ve known better), National Security Advisor Mike Waltz, Trump aide Steven Miller, the Deputy Chief of Staff for Policy (why was he included?), Trump’s Chief of Staff Susie Wiles (who also should’ve known better), and worst of all, JD Vance, the Vice President. (Wikipedia has a precis available here that’s pretty good.)

Really, people? This is the best you could do? We’d not know about this if they hadn’t added a journalist to the call inadvertently (Jeffrey Goldberg, editor-in-chief of The Atlantic). And because of that, along with pointing out that doing all this was not secure and was not safe and shouldn’t happen, Goldberg is getting vilified by many on the right for reasons I do not understand.

There’s a reason you go into the SCIF, people!

What’s that reason? Operational Security, AKA “OpSec.” Something Hegseth said was fine on this text chain or group chat or whatever the Hell it was.

Um, no. It wasn’t.

Look. I am only a former military wife. My ex-husband was in the active-duty Army for almost five years when we were married. If he had done anything remotely like this, he would’ve been sent to Fort Leavenworth so fast his head would’ve spun.

For those of you who don’t know why this is, let me put it to you this way. If you’re in the military, you are supposed to remember something along these lines: Loose lips sink ships. That applies in the Army, though they don’t have ships. It also applies to the Navy, where my late husband Michael served, as well as my father.

In fact, Dad was a radio technician. He knew a lot about OpSec. I think if he were still alive, he’d have burst a blood vessel in his head or something, as what Hegseth, et. al, just did is not something anyone should be doing.

Dad was a non-com. He wasn’t an officer. But he knew what you could say and what you couldn’t. He also knew what mediums you could use if something was not classified, and what you shouldn’t use under any circumstances.

While cell phones were not something that Dad had to deal with in the 1950s when he served, they did have extensive radio traffic. Possibly more than we do now, because we have computers. Anyway, Dad knew that you do not say something out in the open that anyone could possibly listen to or break into/hack into, and you most certainly would not do this from anywhere other than a secure place.

This could’ve killed members of the US military if the Houthis had been tipped off this attack was coming. Only by the grace of God did that not happen.

I mean, one of these people on the chat/text thing was in Moscow. Russia, despite what the current President believes, is not a typical ally of the United States.

So, what the Hell was this guy in Russia doing on an unsecured line texting back and forth about the air strikes that were about to hit Yemen?

Seriously? What the Hell?

I’m particularly disappointed in Gabbard and Rubio. They are career politicians, yes, but Gabbard was an Army Major at one time. She’s not a fool. Rubio was at one time quite canny, and understood what “OpSec” really is a few years ago. But he obviously doesn’t now.

The excuses of “well, we didn’t know” or “these weren’t really war plans” (which go to hundreds of pages) do not fly with me. At all.

My view of this is very simple. If a noncom like my Dad could’ve been sent to jail for less, and trust me, he could’ve, these people have no excuse — zero — for what they did.

Do I want them in jail? No. But I do want them fired, or to resign, effective immediately. Not just Waltz, the NSA. All of them, including the Vice President.

They’ve all shown they can’t be trusted, they have no common sense, and they don’t know what the Hell they’re doing. The current President deserves better from these people, and he’s not likely to get it, so he should ask them all to submit their resignations ASAP. (If not, they should be fired, and if Mr. Trump refuses to fire them, they should be impeached and removed. Every single last one of them.)

Or as Rachel Maddow put it — I hope I get it right — “These aren’t the sharpest tools in the shed. They’re quite dull tools. But this is who we have in charge of our national security.”

Unsaid, but very obvious, was the subtext of this: God help us all.

Catching Up (Including Some Thoughts on Milwaukee Sports)

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Folks, I thought I’d just type something to you all today, mostly so you’d know I’m still alive and doing the best I can.

The last several months have been beyond difficult. Sometimes, I’m not sure I know when the stress ends and I begin. The only good thing I can point to is that I’ve been able to write more…it’s more that my writing is demanding that I set it down than anything. (Most writers have been there a time or three.)

I’ve also been able to write some music from time to time, though it’s fitful. For example, right now I have a multiple movement piece going, and not one of the movements has been finished. They’re all started, which is great. But if I don’t figure out where the melodies are, where the harmonies should be implied (this is a solo saxophone piece, in case anyone’s wondering; since the sax cannot play chords on its own, the best anyone can do in a solo piece is to imply what the harmony might well be), and figure out how to end these movements while trying to tie them all up in a nifty bow, I’d be doing myself a disservice.

You might wonder why I say that. It’s because I know, as my late husband Michael used to say, that my first language is music. My second language is words. This is why I listen so much for what something sounds like, as well as how it flows, in words. It’s probably why before I started writing a great deal of fiction, I’d written quite a few poems.

I also have made some excellent progress with the can’t-tell-you-yet-project. Here’s to hoping I make even more progress in the upcoming week.

I’m also looking forward to the start of Major League Baseball’s Opening Day. The Milwaukee Brewers will be opening up their season on March 27 in New York City as they’re scheduled to play the Yankees. A few days later, they will return to Milwaukee and play their first home games of the year.

(Yes, the Los Angeles Dodgers played the Chicago Cubs in a two-game series in Japan on March 18 and 19. I’m sorry, though; that did not feel like Opening Day or even Opening Week to me, instead feeling like two glorified exhibition games that the Dodgers get to take two games as “wins” for the regular season. I was not impressed.)

As per usual, I’m also keeping an eye on the Milwaukee Bucks. They’ve been playing well, for the most part, despite having games where their star players either are not able to play, or are dealing with significant injuries that can’t help but hamper them. Giannis Antetokounmpo is, to my mind, the best player in the NBA. He is excellent defensively, has a great mid-range jump shot, can take the ball to the basket on just about anyone, and somehow, the coaching staff has gotten him to lay off the three-point shot (as it’s really not Giannis’s strength at all). He dishes out assists, pulls down rebounds, and scores over thirty points a night regularly. Between him and Damian Lillard (an excellent three-point shooter and much better defensively than I’d expected), the Bucks go into just about any game believing they can and will win. (Then it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy.)

So, that’s about it. I’m writing and editing as I’m able, watching sports as I always do, keeping the home fires burning as best I can also, and am looking for the silver lining, even if I don’t yet know where it is.

What are you all doing this week?

Written by Barb Caffrey

March 23, 2025 at 7:19 am

Mourning the Passing of Milwaukee Bucks Legend Junior Bridgeman, 71

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Junior Bridgeman was the type of person everyone should want to be. He came from very modest means, once building a stereo out of spare parts with his brother (spare parts he’d scavenged, I’d heard) because otherwise he couldn’t listen to music. He played fourteen years in the National Basketball Association (NBA), most of them for the Milwaukee Bucks, and turned the money he made there (about $350,000 over his full career) into over a billion dollars by the time he passed away suddenly earlier today.

I say all that, because it’s been reported widely, especially in Wisconsin. But Bridgeman was known for his kindness, his optimism, his humility, and for being a family man around these parts, far more than his business acumen (which was formidable) or his friendships with other NBA players like Earvin “Magic” Johnson, Alex English, even Shaquille O’Neal. Bridgeman was the type of guy to do anything for anyone, as he had a good heart, a kind soul, and truly cared about others.

You know how Google’s motto has often been summed up as “Don’t be Evil,” right? Well, Bridgeman’s personal motto should’ve been something like this: “Do good. It matters, whether it looks like it or not.” That, along with living his personal values and faith — in himself, in others, and in the world at large, along with faith in the Higher Power — was what Junior Bridgeman was all about.

I remember seeing Bridgeman play on television when I was young. He could do anything. He was a great passer, he was a gifted scorer, could play both forward and guard despite the fact he was only 6’5″ (short for an NBA player, even then), and was perhaps the best sixth man in the entirety of the NBA for most of his career. (A sixth man, for those of you who don’t know anything about basketball, is the first guy to come off the bench after the five people who start the game. He’s often one of the most important people on the team, as while he doesn’t have the cachet of a starting player, he’s expected to put up nearly as good of numbers and be an optimistic and maybe even a benevolent presence to be emulated by players not as good as himself that were also on the roster. I know I put that in a very wordy way; I apologize.)

So, being a sixth man was in some ways beneficial to Junior Bridgeman. He knew he didn’t have to be in the limelight all the time to live a good life, have a great career (his number is retired by the Bucks; he wore the number two), and do his best. Some stars, once the limelight is gone, do not do well; there are many stories of the Ryan Leafs of this world, where they get into DUIs, other legal troubles, and can’t acclimate themselves to the pace of a more normal life. Fortunately, Bridgeman did not have that trouble at all.

Bridgeman, recently, became a minority owner of the Bucks. (Yes, he went from player to part-owner.) I don’t know a better rags-to-riches story than that, because it showed the current players that with far less money than they have now, Bridgeman was able to overcome and become a very savvy and accomplished businessman.

But that’s not really how I remember Junior Bridgeman. How I remember him isn’t even the on-court presence or the adept passing skills or the sweet jump shot Bridgeman possessed. Instead, it’s his penchant for helping others.

When we lose someone as kind-hearted as Junior Bridgeman, some of the light goes out of this world. The only consolation we can have is this: he shared his light for as long as he could, and maybe kindled light in others, who will continue to be beacons throughout their lifetimes.

I mourn the loss of Junior Bridgeman tonight. I hope his family, friends, teammates, the entire Bucks organization, and anyone else Bridgeman ever knew or ever helped will be comforted, somehow, by what I said above.

The light he shared matters. The example he set also matters.

But damn, I wish Junior Bridgeman was still here with us, to help more of us see the light.

Thoughts on the Recent Deaths of Gene Hackman and his wife, Betsy Arakawa

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Folks, I’m still alive. Still here. Still doing my best. And, being me, I’ve been thinking about the biggest story and conundrum — outside of politics, that is (not healthy enough to talk politics yet) — of the last few weeks, those being the deaths of actor Gene Hackman, 95, and his wife, classical pianist Betsy Arakawa Hackman, 65.

When they were found, both had been dead over a week. Gene Hackman was found in the mud room — probably the room closest to one of the outside doors — his cane and sunglasses lying where they fell. His wife, Betsy, was found in the bathroom. She’d collapsed there. Pills were scattered all over. One of their three dogs had also perished, but the other two were OK.

You can see where this turn of events was shocking in many senses, can’t you?

Anyway, the medical examiner where they lived in New Mexico said that Betsy Arakawa Hackman died of hantavirus. She died, they think, on February 11, 2025. They had video and email evidence that showed she was active before that time.

When I heard that part of the news, I was a little surprised. Hantavirus is not something I have to deal with in Wisconsin, but I have heard of it. It is a disease spread by rodents. It’s possible that one of the three dogs might’ve carried something in…though the ME certainly didn’t speculate (that’s just me, knowing how dogs act).

Then the ME discussed Hackman’s death. (I heard this while driving, and confirmed a lot of it later online.) He died apparently a week after his wife did. Why didn’t he call 911? She didn’t get into that, but said he had three things that had combined to kill him: long-time hypertension, a history of cardiac problems/arteriosclerosis (also known as atherosclerosis), and, the most shocking of all, advanced Alzheimer’s disease.

This was really stunning to hear.

I took several deep breaths after hearing this, in fact, because I know, a little bit anyway, what Alzheimer’s can do. One of my great-aunts had dementia, probably Alzheimer’s. I visited her when I was a teenager. She didn’t recognize me, only part of the time recognized her own sister (the other part, she thought my grandma was their mother), and also didn’t recognize my mother — the person my great-aunt trusted best, besides her sister, in the whole world.

Alzheimer’s is a really weird disease. It not only robs you of your memories, robs you at least in part of your intellect (depending on how bad it is; my great-aunt’s wasn’t as bad as some as she could still communicate and did still recognize my grandma at least some of the time), but does all sorts of other things that don’t seem to make much sense at all. Some people who get it are not violent, as indeed my great-aunt was not. But some are.

We need a cure for Alzheimer’s and other types of dementia, because a disease that robs you of yourself is the scariest thing that I could ever imagine.

At any rate, everything I’m going to say next is speculation, but here goes.

Hackman had Alzheimer’s, so he didn’t either realize his wife was dead, didn’t know she was his wife anymore, or had some other thing going on. That’s why he didn’t call 911. He was still with it enough to take his cane with him when he went outside for a walk and to put sunglasses on, but that doesn’t mean he was with it in every other sense.

Because she died first, when he passed, there was no one to say anything about either one of them. He was on a cardiac monitor, and they later looked up what that feed told them. He had some sort of cardiac event on February 19th — this being approximately 8 days after the last time Betsy, his wife, had been alive — and after that, his pacemaker went nonfunctional. (That’s because he was dead.)

They had three dogs, and the one that died was twelve years old. That particular dog was known to be particularly attached to Betsy. It’s possible that the reason this dog was in a closet was because Hackman, not compos mentis anymore, didn’t like the howls, barks, whines, or other things the dog was probably doing around Betsy’s dead body. (Dogs do this. They know when someone is ill, and they know when someone is dying or has already passed on.) So, it’s possible Hackman put the one dog in the closet, then forgot about the dog, which is why the dog died (apparently of dehydration and malnutrition, though again, that’s my own speculation).

The other two dogs were still alive. How? Well, maybe Hackman had enough left of himself to feed the other two dogs and give them water. Maybe that’s why he went outside, as one of the dogs was found outside. We’ll never know for sure, but if no one was in that house save the Hackmans, and Betsy died on February 11, there’s only one reason the other two dogs were alive — and that’s because Gene Hackman was feeding and watering them.

This was tragic, though, on all levels. Betsy Arakawa Hackman loved her husband so much, she was taking care of him at home by herself. She wore herself down to a thread, it seems to me, and that may have been why when she somehow was exposed to hantavirus that she didn’t last very long. They know she emailed a few people on February 11, which means she was well enough to sit up and say she was sick (assuming that’s what she said; I don’t know if that’s what it was, as I’m still speculating). But later that day or evening, in the bathroom, she collapsed and died.

This part is not speculation, however. The ME said flat-out that Gene Hackman had previous cardiac events and heart damage consistent with prior heart attacks. The ME also said Gene H. had arteriosclerosis. (She said atherosclerosis. It’s the same thing, or so close it makes no nevermind.) This is what my grandma would’ve called “hardening of the arteries.” It’s consistent with the other heart issues the ME found.

So, even without the Alzheimer’s that the ME found, Gene H. would’ve needed extensive care from his wife or a caregiver. He was 95, his body was failing, and his mind was almost gone — I can’t imagine how else to put it, as he must’ve known someone had died in that bathroom, even if he didn’t recognize her as his wife anymore — so he didn’t know to call 911, or didn’t care, or felt it wasn’t his problem…who knows what he was thinking, or if he was thinking at all? Maybe he did the best he could do, which was to keep the other two dogs alive.

Sometimes life is just cruel, and I think the fact that Betsy Arakawa Hackman died before her husband Gene did is just that: cruel.

All I can think of now is, what about the two surviving dogs? Will they find good homes? (I hope so.)

And, finally…if there is a positive afterlife, I hope Betsy greeted her husband, and that he knew her again, knew their love, knew her sacrifices on his behalf, and know her immense love and kindness and concern for him. I’d like to think the two of them walked into Heaven together, hand in hand, with their twelve-year-old dog beside them, bright-eyed and bushy tailed, free and happy and out of pain and knowing each other as only close loved ones can.

Surfacing Briefly…

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Folks, right now I am battling a case of the flu. I suspect it would be considered “mild” as I can think, but it’s not pleasant, regardless.

So, while I have plenty of things to say, my health is the priority right now.

Mostly, I just wanted to use this opportunity to urge you to be good to one another, and treat others the way you, yourself, want to be treated. As always, if you can keep from spreading vitriol (which I define as “bad stuff for the sake of bad stuff,” which is a lot different than speaking truth to power), do it, as the world has more than enough vitriol to last several thousand lifetimes as it is.

Music I’m listening to: Poppy’s “New Way Out” is attractive, though I don’t understand why she always has to say “Poppy” in all of her songs. (Her voice is distinctive enough that I don’t need that cue.) “I need a new way…I need a new way out” is a lyric that can’t help but resonate strongly with me. Other favorites include “Monsters” by Shinedown and of course “Hold on to Memories” by Disturbed.

Book I’m avidly waiting for: Sharon Lee and Steve Miller’s DIVINER’S BOW, the latest in their trademarked Liaden Universe. If you haven’t read any of their work yet, go do it ASAP. Good places to start include SALVAGE RIGHT, FLEDGLING, PLAN B, LOCAL CUSTOM, CONFLICT OF HONORS, and SCOUT’S PROGRESS. There’s action, romance, believable aliens, and all sorts of other details that cement these novels as being the excellent works I know them to be. Note that if you read one, you’re likely to find them as addicting as I do…in the best of senses. (So read, people!)

Anyway, hold tight to your moral compass, and remember that what is popular may not always be right. Open your minds, refuse to cede any of your mind to anyone in advance, and always, always question authority.

I’ll be back when I feel better.

Remembering the Lives of the Skaters, Parents, and Coaches Who Died in Recent DC Airport Crash

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Folks, while I’m not Scott Hamilton, not Brian Boitano, not Nancy Kerrigan, or anyone most of the figure skating community would recognize as I never skated, my heart aches for these people.

As a young musician, I traveled a lot within my state to various competitions. If there had been competitions like the ones in figure skating for young adults, I could’ve been in the same position these skaters, parents, and coaches were in.

Most of the names of the people who passed away have been released now, so I can discuss them a little bit more easily than before. I want to start with Franco Aparicio. He was thirteen, a citizen of Argentina, who was a member of the Washington Figure Skating Club. Gifted skaters often come to the United States because there’s more available ice time here (some countries might have one rink, or worse, no rinks at all), there are far more coaches available here, and it’s possible to make friends with like-minded people here. In his home country, Franco might’ve been considered odd for his love of figure skating and wanting to become an Olympic champion. In the United States, he found companionship, friendship, and appreciation for his abilities.

Franco’s father Luis was also aboard the flight that collided, somehow, with a helicopter. He was a skating parent, and did his best to help his child learn and grow as a skater and as a person. He was a dedicated man, driven, and did what was best for his child in bringing him to the United States where Franco could train and learn and find friends.

Franco’s coach, Inna Volyanskaya, was also aboard. She was fifty-nine, and was known for her grace, her resilience, and for winning six international medals as an ice dancer while skating for the former Soviet Union. She was very proud of Franco, very proud of all of her students, and was known for caring about them…possibly like a mama bear caring for her cubs. She was the type of person, I’ve gathered from various Internet sources, who loved figure skating, loved its grace and ability to transcend nationality and evoke beauty. She’d lived and worked in the United States for several years before her passing.

Brielle Beyer was twelve. She’d had a rare cancer as an infant, and grew up loving what so many young girls love: Walt Disney World. Taylor Swift. And skating. She was gifted. She loved her mother, Justyna, also aboard the fateful flight that took their lives. Her father called Brielle a shining beacon of light, so talented, with so much more to give.

Justyna Beyer, like Luis Aparicio, was a skating parent. She did everything in her power to get Brielle the training she needed. Being sent to the developmental camp was important for Brielle, so Justyna went while her husband stayed home and held the fort. She was very much looking forward to going home, but had enjoyed being among other skating parents like her in Wichita as they all watched their children, gifted skaters all, learn from the best.

Alydia Livingston was just eleven years old. She and her sister Everly, fourteen, had a following on Instagram as the “Ice Skating Sisters.” Alydia was an ice dancer, and was the youngest of all the skaters aboard. Ice dance is a different discipline than either pairs skating or women/men’s singles skating as it requires a partner, lots of time to get to know your partner and his quirks on the ice, and be able to develop a unison with said partner while gliding and dancing around the ice. Ice dancers don’t, technically, do any jumps, but they can do lifts and their discipline is very challenging due to the need for unison and unusual dance-type lifts. She had only recently found a new ice dance partner and was very enthusiastic about him and figure skating.

Everly was a singles skater. This, to non-figure skating cognoscenti, means she did jumps, spins, footwork across the ice, and so much more, fitting all that against music, wearing costumes reflecting that music, and almost certainly studying some form of ballet or dance as that helps skaters of all disciplines. (Alydia probably did some of that, too, and would’ve done more as she grew.) Everly was more reserved than her sister, but the ice made her sparkle; she loved skating. With her sister on that Instagram account, they promoted skating as a sport and as an art form.

Alydia and Everly’s parents, Donna and Peter Livingston, were known for their devotion to their daughters and being willing to go anywhere their daughters needed to be in order to further their skating. While they both held jobs — she worked for Comcast, and he worked as a real-estate agent — their true passion was for their daughters. Everyone knew it, from what I can tell by the various accounts all over the Internet. That’s why both of them were on the flight, why both of them had managed to get time off for a week at the same time — imagine how difficult that is for non-skating parents, OK? That’s hard. For something like this? That has to be magnified a thousand percent or more…yet they found a way and they were there with their daughters, until their end.

Skater Cory Haynos was sixteen. He’d recently landed a triple Axel jump, one of the most difficult three-revolution jumps. (Technically, it’s three and a half revolutions, which is what makes it an Axel in the first place. Plus the takeoff is different.) He was very proud of this, as he should be; this was part of what he needed, going forward, to become the rising star he hoped to be. He already was a gifted skater with limitless potential. He also was a Christian, and had a Biblical verse listed on his Instagram account. Cory had power and speed, and these two attributes were especially important to continue to climb the ladder as a skater. His family, including his cousins, believed Cory would represent the United States in the Olympics someday.

Cory’s parents, Roger and Stephanie, were skating parents who’d do anything for their son. She was on the board of the Figure Skating Club of Virginia, Cory’s home away from home…they, like the Livingstons, somehow found a way to go as a family to the important developmental camp held in Wichita at the conclusion of the United States National Figure Skating Championships. (I added “national” there because many skaters call the US championships the “nationals.”) They died alongside their son.

Note that all of these skating parents were in midlife. They had much time left to them, had this not happened. It’s not just the kids and their skating that’s so important to remember here, but the parents who did everything in their power — absolutely everything — to help get their kids the ice time, the coaches, the friends, the support…all of that was absolutely essential to their children’s development, they knew it, and they did it all.

Skater Edward Zhou was sixteen. He was known for being a bright light, someone who encouraged everyone. He loved skating, to the point he’d fall and get up with a smile on his face. One of his schoolteachers, Julie Barker Little, posted on Facebook as a tribute to him that he was “everything you could hope for in a student, in a young man, in a fellow human being. He was magic!”

Edward was also humble, his teacher Barker Little said. He only spoke of skating when asked. Other athletes were in his class that made big fusses over whatever sport they were in, and they had no idea that Edward was so gifted. Edward was actually part of the national development team for four consecutive years. Barker Little said Edward loved to learn, had taken Spanish classes and was given an award for learning the language so well, and was the epitome of grace and class. (That’s how I’m phrasing it from other things she’s said online.) Edward had also learned the important triple Axel jump, just like Cory Haynos.

His parents, Joe and Kaiyan Zhou, went everywhere they could with their son. They were devoted skating parents. He was their only child, and they did everything they could to help him become the young man he was destined to be. The Skating Lesson, a skating social media page, said that the Zhous were known for always being at the rink.

Skater Olivia Eve Ter was just twelve. The Skating Lesson reported that Ter’s coach, Sergei Baranov, called her “cheerful, positive, talented, goal-oriented girl.” She loved ballet in addition to figure skating (this does not surprise me; often, figure skaters take ballet or another dance discipline as it helps skaters learn how to move in different ways), and she’d improved in leaps and bounds over the past year. One of the other coaches at her rink, Maria Elena Pinto, called Olivia “effervescent” and that she loved to listen to Taylor Swift and watch her coach, Sergei, dance. Olivia also liked to play practical jokes on her coaches, and apparently kept other skaters in stitches, loosening up the atmosphere at the rink whenever she was around.

Her mother, Olesya Ter, was a devoted mother with a kind heart. She had been a pediatrician in Russia, but came to the United States to support her girls. Surviving them are Olivia’s father (and Olesya’s husband) Andrew and Olivia’s sister, Anna Valery.

Alexsandr Kirsanov was forty-six. A former ice dancer who competed for the U.S., Russia, and Azerbaijan, he was known for his kindness, his light-heartedness, and for being genuine. Former U.S. ice dancers Dennis Petukhov and his wife and skating partner, Melissa Gregory, said on MSNBC that Sasha was the type of guy who’d do anything for you he possibly could. He was down-to-earth in the best way. He truly cared about people. And he was kind…while like any coach, he could be critical (you almost have to be, in order to show your students what they need to do to improve), he delivered his critiques with a smile. Kirsanov was married to Natalya Guden, and they both coached for the University of Delaware Figure Skating Club.

Kirsanov was the coach of Angela Yang and Sean Kay, both just eleven years old. They’d been undefeated in the juvenile ice dance category all year. That’s hard to do. Sasha was very proud of them, and Yang and Kay had big dreams for the future. Angela’s mother, Lily, and Sean’s mother, Yulia, accompanied them on the flight. Angela is survived by her father and two siblings. Sean is survived by his father and three siblings. Kirsanov is survived by his wife, Natalya, and their children, both skaters.

I discussed Jinna Han and Spencer Lane in the earlier blog, but keep in mind their parents, Jin Han and Christine Conrad Lane, were also like the Livingstons. Like the Haynoses. Like Luis Aparicio. Like Mrs. Ter. Like the Zhous. Caring people who wanted the best for their children. People in midlife, with much time remaining for them to continue to encourage their children, giving good examples to others, and following their own passions, their own jobs, their own lives alongside their children. These were infinities, as science fiction author Lois McMaster Bujold called it.

These people were all infinities.

It’s been a few days, now, since all of these wonderful people died. Like former Olympic Champion Scott Hamilton, I can’t wrap my head around it. All of that potential, gone. All of those vital people in midlife, gone.

I really hope the National Transportation and Safety Board finds out what happened here, and that it never, but never, happens ever again.